I told you not to mess with that day because you accidentally caused a time reversion and had no idea how to work within it, Barry. You were fumbling over yourself to even keep calm until I talked to you about it, even if I knew it meant...slipping away my guise early. I cautioned you because I know first-hand the reprecussions and didn't want you to suffer.
[The reprecussions in this case were not realizing that altering Barry's past indirectly altered his past too. He still doesn't fully grasp the how or why of it all, but he knows killing Nora is what caused his powers to fluctuate and why he got stuck. He doesn't regret killing her, but he does regret not having the foresight to predict the shockwave it would create through time.
He can't say he's all that surprised at Barry's reaction, but he has no idea why he would rather wait to get those powers. How becoming the Flash faster than before can be a bad thing. Deep inside he feels a strange sensation of being irked when he considers that. This is one of the few good things he has done for Barry's life, the gift of his powers faster than before, but Barry never did understand him. Not in the future and not in the past and not in the present.
Sometimes he's aware that he wants that understanding more than he's ever willing to admit, even to himself.]
I'm not asking you to say thanks. I decided to create it faster because I didn't want to spend a good portion of my life trapped in a time not my own. I did it for myself even more than for you. Fifteen years of wait compared to twenty-two, the answer was obvious to me and would be to anyone in my place. [That and taking Harrison Wells' place also allowed him direct access to Barry's life. Something he couldn't obtain nearly as easily under the name Eobard Thawne.]
However, I do ask you not discount the good I have done. What I have done for you and even others, like Cisco and Caitlin and Ronnie and so on - I have brought you all great good. You, especially you, would not have reached the heights you have without me by your side. [He smiles tepidly and takes a step toward Barry, moving his arm to hold the fliers behind his back.] To push you, to teach you, to help you...to believe in you, even when there were others who did not.
[Because if there is anything he has learned in spending time with this younger version of his enemy, it's that he is someone who can believed in. Someone who won't stop moving, won't stop running, until he draws his last breath.]
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[The reprecussions in this case were not realizing that altering Barry's past indirectly altered his past too. He still doesn't fully grasp the how or why of it all, but he knows killing Nora is what caused his powers to fluctuate and why he got stuck. He doesn't regret killing her, but he does regret not having the foresight to predict the shockwave it would create through time.
He can't say he's all that surprised at Barry's reaction, but he has no idea why he would rather wait to get those powers. How becoming the Flash faster than before can be a bad thing. Deep inside he feels a strange sensation of being irked when he considers that. This is one of the few good things he has done for Barry's life, the gift of his powers faster than before, but Barry never did understand him. Not in the future and not in the past and not in the present.
Sometimes he's aware that he wants that understanding more than he's ever willing to admit, even to himself.]
I'm not asking you to say thanks. I decided to create it faster because I didn't want to spend a good portion of my life trapped in a time not my own. I did it for myself even more than for you. Fifteen years of wait compared to twenty-two, the answer was obvious to me and would be to anyone in my place. [That and taking Harrison Wells' place also allowed him direct access to Barry's life. Something he couldn't obtain nearly as easily under the name Eobard Thawne.]
However, I do ask you not discount the good I have done. What I have done for you and even others, like Cisco and Caitlin and Ronnie and so on - I have brought you all great good. You, especially you, would not have reached the heights you have without me by your side. [He smiles tepidly and takes a step toward Barry, moving his arm to hold the fliers behind his back.] To push you, to teach you, to help you...to believe in you, even when there were others who did not.
[Because if there is anything he has learned in spending time with this younger version of his enemy, it's that he is someone who can believed in. Someone who won't stop moving, won't stop running, until he draws his last breath.]