[ Gansey has leaned forward a little, the menu forgotten. What had happened to him has never been a secret. He's told all his friends, and they'd all reacted in various ways.
But none of them had been like Billy. None of them had talked about it as if it was a technical issue that they could deconstruct. What a fascinating perspective. Gansey has the curious feeling of being both in this conversation and observing it, filing it away in his mind to make notes on later. ]
He.
He wants to be found. It feels as though he does. These last few months, I keep getting closer. I find things that would have delighted me at the start, and now they're disappointments because it feels so close. Both closer and further away than ever.
[ Gansey frowns as he says that, as he articulates it. His fingers flicker, curling in on his hand. ]
But I need to find him, Billy. I've come far. I can't give up on him now.
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But none of them had been like Billy. None of them had talked about it as if it was a technical issue that they could deconstruct. What a fascinating perspective. Gansey has the curious feeling of being both in this conversation and observing it, filing it away in his mind to make notes on later. ]
He.
He wants to be found. It feels as though he does. These last few months, I keep getting closer. I find things that would have delighted me at the start, and now they're disappointments because it feels so close. Both closer and further away than ever.
[ Gansey frowns as he says that, as he articulates it. His fingers flicker, curling in on his hand. ]
But I need to find him, Billy. I've come far. I can't give up on him now.