[He understands better than most, in a way, but he also doesn't entirely understand, because unlike Masaoka, Kogami never managed to find the peace the elder Enforcer did; settled into acceptance of his new lot in life, sure, but where Masaoka was able confront his demons to stabilize his Hue, the source of Kogami's decline is still out there.
It's what keeps him from allowing himself to see this world as anything other than a forced hiatus, an unwilling pit stop. It's why he hasn't been able to bring himself to give up his terrible job and find something he was better suited to.]
...There's always keeping whatever they gave you. Getting money just for showing up isn't a bad deal.
[--is what he says, but of course, he wouldn't have asked if it was as simple of that. Some part of him is burning to know, more than if Masaoka would go back to law enforcement, if he wants to go back to this kind of law enforcement, if he's tempted at all by the thought.
It's different with the others--Kagari, who had never known life outside a cage at all before this world, or Tsunemori, who'd never seen the inside with them (and he hopes she never does). Masaoka, though, he'd been through it all. Been a regular detective, been an Inspector, and finally an Enforcer. He has enough experiences under his belt to make an informed comparison.
and Kogami, of course, is torn on the knife's edge of that--does he want to know, or is it safer to stay in the dark, to protect himself from any unacceptable directions Masaoka's answer could send his thoughts in?]
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It's what keeps him from allowing himself to see this world as anything other than a forced hiatus, an unwilling pit stop. It's why he hasn't been able to bring himself to give up his terrible job and find something he was better suited to.]
...There's always keeping whatever they gave you. Getting money just for showing up isn't a bad deal.
[--is what he says, but of course, he wouldn't have asked if it was as simple of that. Some part of him is burning to know, more than if Masaoka would go back to law enforcement, if he wants to go back to this kind of law enforcement, if he's tempted at all by the thought.
It's different with the others--Kagari, who had never known life outside a cage at all before this world, or Tsunemori, who'd never seen the inside with them (and he hopes she never does). Masaoka, though, he'd been through it all. Been a regular detective, been an Inspector, and finally an Enforcer. He has enough experiences under his belt to make an informed comparison.
and Kogami, of course, is torn on the knife's edge of that--does he want to know, or is it safer to stay in the dark, to protect himself from any unacceptable directions Masaoka's answer could send his thoughts in?]