...I know this is going to sound selfish, but...after everything that's happen, I want to know even if it'll hurt...

[With all that said, she'll decide to ask him plain and simple.]

Am I a bother to you? Is everything I am doing for you...does none of it matter...?

[There will be a light pause as she lowers her head a bit, then shakes it.]

No, that isn't what I want to know. Not really. Forget any of that. What I really mean to say is...or rather ask is: what are your true thoughts about my intentions in wanting to help you?