I've never actually forgiven anyone before so perhaps the lack of anger and bitterness means I have?

I still remember the details vividly. I still remember how much I hated you, everything I did to make sure you suffered. But I remember the first day you arrived. We didn't have to destroy each other here and you seemed to make a choice for yourself this time.

So as for forgiveness- perhaps. I know for certain is that I don't want to hate you.