[He nods. There isn't much more he can say about it. At least... the pain's over with. The Porter saw to that.
But he blanches slightly, not at the glare, but the touch. The easiest thing to do, the natural thing, would be to just say 'yes sir' and be done with it. But he can't do that.]
Sir, the only reason I couldn't find him was because of my conditioning. I couldn't see how suspiciously he was acting until he said it himself.
[This was something he'd been trying to come to grips with since his arrival. He acted precisely as he was supposed to, and that led to failure. It was bound to happen to everyone in some way, by random chance if nothing else. But he's deeply aware of his limitations, and how that had left him unprepared, both for the attack and what happened after.]
I know in the medbay you were trying to tell me something that I still can't accept. [And he doesn't think that will ever really change. But he's gone in circles with himself on that hundreds of times, how can he know for certain what his feelings are when so many of them were chosen for him?] If I've become too much of a liability, our service together shouldn't stop you from making whatever decisions you need to.
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But he blanches slightly, not at the glare, but the touch. The easiest thing to do, the natural thing, would be to just say 'yes sir' and be done with it. But he can't do that.]
Sir, the only reason I couldn't find him was because of my conditioning. I couldn't see how suspiciously he was acting until he said it himself.
[This was something he'd been trying to come to grips with since his arrival. He acted precisely as he was supposed to, and that led to failure. It was bound to happen to everyone in some way, by random chance if nothing else. But he's deeply aware of his limitations, and how that had left him unprepared, both for the attack and what happened after.]
I know in the medbay you were trying to tell me something that I still can't accept. [And he doesn't think that will ever really change. But he's gone in circles with himself on that hundreds of times, how can he know for certain what his feelings are when so many of them were chosen for him?] If I've become too much of a liability, our service together shouldn't stop you from making whatever decisions you need to.