It was heartbreaking to hear, but Lan Zhan's expression didn't change. He watched Wei Ying as quietly and impassively as ever, despite the way his heart yearned to comfort him. He wished he could grant the easy affection that Wei Ying showed him.
But it wasn't the same, was it? It never had been. Lan Zhan's restraint was good for the both of them, especially now he had learned where not to restrain himself. He would never hold back on protecting Wei Wuxian - on fighting at his side - ever again.
The rest was secondary. He wouldn't let his feelings build a wall between them. He'd rather take his place in the heavens having never spoken a word, than to give Wei Wuxian a reason to push him away. So no affection. Not from him. He would resist. Even if it was a lot harder to do that when the alcohol had blurred the edges of his inhibitions.
"Rest," he repeated, his voice still low, "And I will."
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But it wasn't the same, was it? It never had been. Lan Zhan's restraint was good for the both of them, especially now he had learned where not to restrain himself. He would never hold back on protecting Wei Wuxian - on fighting at his side - ever again.
The rest was secondary. He wouldn't let his feelings build a wall between them. He'd rather take his place in the heavens having never spoken a word, than to give Wei Wuxian a reason to push him away. So no affection. Not from him. He would resist. Even if it was a lot harder to do that when the alcohol had blurred the edges of his inhibitions.
"Rest," he repeated, his voice still low, "And I will."