CONFESSIONS MEME

[devoutish]

1. Post a comment with your character spilling their confessions and innermost thoughts for all to see
2. Go around and comment to other characters ICly, expressing shock, awe, disgust, anger, etc.
3. Discuss, accuse, commiserate, threadjack, etc.

Comments

[devoutish]

If a killing is something I'm gonna regret, I make a point of not doing it. So no regrets, no - or at least, very few.

But I have got limits.

[dr_eldarov]

That's still disheartening to hear.

And I have precisely one line I won't allow anyone else to ever cross without flatout electrifying them here. Are we clear?

[devoutish]

Does that make you judge, jury, and executioner?

[dr_eldarov]

You can electrocute someone without killing them. At great length. I'm not entirely sure I even have enough electricity to kill someone. I wouldn't try it. But some things need some kind of lashback.

I don't claim a moral highground. I am very, very broken. But I am mostly comfortable with it.

[devoutish]

So am I.

[dr_eldarov]

My brokenness has not involved hurting someone else since the war. Normally... it's easy for a doctor to treat and hide his own wounds, if you catch my meaning. I don't put those feelings on someone else. I don't take their lives.

I don't think I could. I think it might break me. So I just simply cannot comprehend how others do it. I still have nightmares about enemy soldiers I killed during the Great War; even here, the guilt never leaves me.

In some very sick way, I envy people who can move on from such acts as if nothing happened. It is an ability I have always lacked.

[devoutish]

Now, I'm not broken. I don't do this because I'm wounded. What I meant was that I'm comfortable with what I do.

[dr_eldarov]

If you're comfortable with this, that is a kind of brokenness unto itself. Which I don't look down upon you much for, but let's not pretend it isn't a sign of something being very wrong.

[devoutish]

I'm not a very good man. That's not the same as being a broken man, mate. I've seen broken men.

[dr_eldarov]

In the interest of the proud Jewish tradition of arguing: define your term. This could be interesting.

[devoutish]

Having problems with functioning. Dissatisfied; agonized. Not having a place in the world.

[dr_eldarov]

We're in another world entirely. Technically, we don't quite have a place, beyond whatever the government, God and chance let us have.

[devoutish]

Not having a place here is one thing. None of us really belong here. But we're talking about how I am at home, on my own world. That's very different.