TRUTH SERUM MEME

[continuousgroaning]

TRUTH SERUM MEME!

Step 1: Post with your character(s)
Step 2: Other characters come along and ask them questions. Anon is OK!
Step 3: Your character is obligated to answer truthfully.
Step 4: Discuss the answers ICly. HAVE FUN

Comments

[flightforfreedom]

I don't need to know. Your actions speak for themselves. I don't care what 'forces were at work' in your head, to justify killing an entire village of innocent civilians. There's no excuse you could possibly offer me to explain that away.

Every death I've been responsible for was an enemy combatant. You cannot say the same.

And honestly? Yeah. I do regret a lot of the people I've had to kill. How many of them were stolen as children and forced to work for you, or Hux, or Snoke, who otherwise could have been decent fucking people? I think about that a lot, these days.

But as long as they were wielding blasters on the innocent?

I can live with my regret.

[photophobic]

It is hard not to feel some sympathy for children stolen away, caught up in a conflict and remade as weapons, isn't it.

[ Some fairly heavy bitterness there. Oops. ]

Though I do find it interesting you aren't considering the children you have recruited and lead to their destruction as deaths you are responsible for. Unsurprising, but interesting.

[flightforfreedom]

[The uncomfortable shift is only slightly visible in the visible spectrum - in the emotional one, it grates against him roughly. But.

In the end, Kylo still made his own choice. So he can push that aside for now.]



What children.

You mean the adult pilots that I recruited to join a cause to fight genocidal mass murders?

Yeah, funny I don't count the deaths of heroes on my own head. Funny I don't consider First Order weaponry to be things I have control over.

[photophobic]

Heroes. Of course. You feel no regret for the heroes who have died under your banner, or the villains who have died under theirs.
And why would you? Dying is what heroes and villains are meant for, isn't it?

How dare we simply live instead.

[flightforfreedom]

Everyone who flies with me knows what the risks are. And the stakes. They all know what would happen, if they didn't put their lives on the line.

The Hosnian system illustrated everything pretty damn clearly for everyone.

None of them would have had to die, without you and the rest of the First Order.

So maybe you should have fucking thought of 'simply living' there.

[photophobic]

As if the son of Leia Organa, nephew of Luke Skywalker, bright with the promise of the mighty blood running in his veins ever had the option of simply living.

I will seek no forgiveness for becoming a weapon for one side rather than the other in a war I was tied to before I was even born, any more than I will seek your permission to finally exist beyond its reach.

[flightforfreedom]

No? You honestly see no fucking difference between the side you chose and the one you ran from?

There are ways to run away from home without murdering a fuck ton of people, Kylo. [Saying the name with all the incredulity that he gave it. As if the word 'Ben' was masked just behind it.]


And now? Are you actually going to simply 'exist' here? That nothing's going to cause you to pick up that lightsaber again?

[photophobic]

Is that what you think happened?

[ A pause. A slight tilt of his head. ]

Of course it is. A shame you can't ask them for the truth.
Not that you would see it, even then. How could you?
You need the story you have told yourself. The lies. They hold you together.

Which is why you want to hear me tell you I will never kill again- not because you hope it's true, but so that you can feel vindicated when I break my word and prove you right.

I don't reject what I did or what I am any more than you do. And if you give me reason, I promise you, I will kill anyone who stands against me.
The difference between us is this.

[ He steps forward, his gaze unnervingly steady on Poe's face ]

I am not looking for a reason.