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aww yeah it's question meme time
Time to bring back one of my old faves...
Simple and easy! Here's how it goes:
1. POST a top-level with your character name
2. REPLY to other people's top-level with a question for that character
3. ANSWER the question you were asked
4. ASK a question of that person's characters in return!
We go back and forth like this asking questions in a thread until one or both of us runs out of questions!
QUESTIONS CAN BE ANYTHING. Serious or silly as you want! What does Jane think of (x)? What does Sarah have for breakfast? How many times a day does Alex masturbate? What's Tom's dream job? The only limit for questions is your imagination.
Replies can be as monosyllabic or as tl;dr are you want; it's up to you. Go wild kids!
the QUESTION meme
Simple and easy! Here's how it goes:
1. POST a top-level with your character name
2. REPLY to other people's top-level with a question for that character
3. ANSWER the question you were asked
4. ASK a question of that person's characters in return!
We go back and forth like this asking questions in a thread until one or both of us runs out of questions!
QUESTIONS CAN BE ANYTHING. Serious or silly as you want! What does Jane think of (x)? What does Sarah have for breakfast? How many times a day does Alex masturbate? What's Tom's dream job? The only limit for questions is your imagination.
Replies can be as monosyllabic or as tl;dr are you want; it's up to you. Go wild kids!
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1. Honestly, his initial struggles about being dead back home VS alive here was more okay but why do I have to be alive again? It was a huge metaphorical kick in the balls, because he'd spent two years of his life psyching himself up for being dead and free of responsibilities or worries or feelings or anything-- and then BAM, here he is, alive again for no damn reason. Recently he's been more accepting of being alive, though there are still some definitive struggles. One of the main ones is having any long-term goals.
He doesn't. He doesn't want anything more than what he has because he already has more than he did back home. He can't bring himself to care about RAWRG IMPORT VOTING RIGHTS or even the stipends being cut from the unregistered heroes and all those dynamics because-- hey, it's nice that they had those to begin with. It's not particularly 'real' to him, the consequences that it could have yet, but even if it did come around to bite him, he'd just carry on and keep going.
He's gotten surviving here down. He's got pattern and routine and things to look after and distract himself, and a way to feel like he's got some sort of purpose/fulfillment with both his job and his more personal relationships-- but when it comes to bettering himself or any "life goals"... he doesn't have any. because this is already way more life than he'd expected, and its kind of a pain and kind of nice in that way. Having died and having accepted his death kind of fucked with his perspective some.
2. Minato's death. Yeah, he's bummed out that another teammate bit it... but he also understands. He knows that Minato is different from him, knows that while they both chose their death, it was for different reasons. (I think, I'm too lazy to look back at the thread, so if Shinjiro doesn't have all this information yet, then I can amend this, lol.) Shinjiro's were selfish and cowardly, an extreme form of escapism, whereas Minato laid down his life to protect others. It was necessary, and that sucks, but Shinjiro can respect it. He's not going to grieve the guy who's living here right in front of him, and feels weird about the idea of mourning someone who... he died before. So he's mostly just processing and sorting all that info, worrying instead about Akihiko, who of course again feels as though he failed to protect people. But this leads us to another issue:
He knows that whatever future his world holds, he's not a part of it. That's another reason he has mixed feelings about information about back home- about the team's success, about Minato's death. It shouldn't matter to him because he elected to remove himself. It sucks that Minato had to die, it's awesome that the team accomplished their goal, but at the end of the day he feels he has to right to mourn or to celebrate, because it isn't his world or future anymore.
3. As for people all leaving and being sent home? He reminds himself of that fairly often, actually. He and Akihiko are fairly open about it, because they know that Akihiko has a fight waiting for him back home. He's got to go back, and he won't remember any of this when he does.
As for returning to death... well. If he just pops out and into death, Shinjiro assumes that he won't realize it, anyway. He envisions death as being absolutely nothing. No hopes for an afterlife or spirit bullshit. He assumes that's just the complete end of things. So he tries not to think too hard about it, because at the end of the day, it'll happen and they can't do anything about it. One day Akihiko will leave to go back home and live his own life-- and one day Shinjiro will die again. They're just constant truths that he's learned to accept.
(This also makes it hard for him to plan in the long term, lmao.)
4. His happiest moments, though, definitely have to come from just... having a sense of fulfillment here. He knows people, he has some to hang out with, to look after. he actually feels like he make a difference sometime when it comes to the kids he counsels. it's like a whole life he'd never gotten to have because of everything back home being derailed with the whole 'persona' bullshit. Movie nights, morning training, grabbing lunch at a coffee shop- having a normal fucking life is astounding to him because it's so low-key.
And, sappily enough, the whole dating thing? Is pretty big. it's awkward and dumb and sappy and they have fights, sure- but end of the day he has someone to care about and fight with and look after and rely on. it's a big weird change for him, but one that he's pretty happy with. Not that he would ever admit to as much out loud.
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